I really hadn’t had a big urge to blog over the past couple of days. I think it’s due to the fact that I’m still getting comments and messages regarding my last blog.
I really didn’t think that many people would read it, but I’m glad they did and hope all enjoyed my long run on about it. LOL Thanks to those that left comments and send messages and everything. It means alot.
I took today off because I wasn’t feeling well this morning. It was one of those things where it would have been fine had I been allowed to work at home (will revist that with the boss very soon) but couldn’t have survived on site. It’s odd.. I have so many different aspects of my job and about 99% could be done by working at home since I never print.
But I shall not bore you with work even though thats what a majority of my life, days, weeks, month, and year takes up. I actually have to tell myself not to work as much.. even though I want to. There’s so much that I want to do and can do.
There really is no point or purpose to this blog. It’s just a bunch of random thoughts and things that are just flowing out and going on here to be honest.
The title comes from the fact that I just listened to one of my favorite singers, Britney Spears. Womanizer came on when I was expecting to see something else on that channel. I wasn’t disappointed, I’m always happy to listen to or watch her. She’s great.
So, I have a random question. Why do people hold on to certain things that they do? Like, when I watch Hoarders on A&E, a lot of the times I find myself yelling at the TV to just throw the stupid thing away. I think they don’t need it and that it serves no purpose for them. But, today, as I was cleaning out my closet I found myself unable to part with certain things despite their age. Some of them were memories, thoughts that I might use them later, thoughts that someone else could use them, etc… I think that some of the people on Hoarders think the sae thing as well.
Now, please, in no way think that I’m a hoarder. I threw out 4 trashbags of stuff and got rid of like 5 boxes…. Now, the thought is “why did you have all that stuff to begin with?” Well it’s easy.. Moving alot, and quickly within short periods of time and not really having the time or motivation for that matter (I’m a world class champion at procrastinaton). So today, with me having the day off and tired of my closet looking the way it did, i went throught the boxes and threw shit out. I was amazed at what I found. Most of it though will now end up in a land fill or be burned somehwere, and I’m okay with that. I needed to get rid of a lot of that shit.
Some of it was memories that I need to forget and just push out and this is the first step at doing it. I may regret throwing some of it away, but I do think that in the short & long run it’s for the best.
So what are some things you hold on to and why? I’m curious.. well you don’t have to tell me, but I’m always curious as to why people do the things they do or think they way they are.. It’s always intrigued me.
So, I’m plotting something that may shake up my family, and I’m kind of excited about it. Now, please, don’t get me wrong and start thinking that I’m just trying to stir up trouble. I’m really not….It’s really hard to explain right now.. but something I will explain later. Some of you may already know or will know what this plan is shortly and before others, but I’m also curious now…..
What have you done that has given your family a good shaking and having them say “What the fuck?” or “Oh shit, we really have to deal with this and get used to it now.” I’m curious.
I think that Nemo has really enjoyed me being off today as he’s gotten a lot of attention and has layed around with me quite a bit. Lucky him. 
Okay – my eyes are heavy and I’m not sure if any of this was making sense. Goodnight!
Things I hold on to:
1.) The BMW (you know why)
2.) EVERYTHING from Sydneys birth (everything, seriously. tiny blood pressure cuff, tiny chest percussor, everything except the belly button, thats just nasty)
3.)Every card, letter, note from Mike. Which is healthy, because we’re still married
4.)a pack of cigarettes from Paris. The actual cigarettes are gone, but the package remains my physical reminder that I was actually in the city of lights.
5.)everything from my wedding day (seriously, everything)
Things I have done to shake up my family:
1.) I left my first husband. Despite the GLARING reasons that justified me doing so, you wouldn’t BELIEVE how awful they handled it.
2.)Moved to Jax to be with Mike. This turned out to be the most amazing decision I have ever made, and the hardest. At the time, though, my parents were NOT happy. But the fact that I was able to take such a leap after being so devastated by husband #1 is nothing short of miraculous, and taking that risk has enriched my life beyond words.
3.) Getting pregnant while Mike was deployed. Cameron was no accident. We were seeing fertility specialists, we knew what day I was ovulating, that shit was science. We made the decision openly, knowing how difficult it was going to be for me to do it without him. Again, another giant leap that has landed me here, 6 weeks from delivering my beautiful, miracle baby boy.
I don’t hold on to a lot of things myself… I can’t stand clutter or having a lot of crap in my house!! There are a few things that I have like my all-time favorite Pound Puppy from back in the day… I also kept some of E’s baby stuff from when he was born… other than that~ not a whole heck of a lot!
I think it’s good to get rid of things that are not associated with the best of memories either. What purpose does it serve in holding onto it?? I think that’s part of the “letting go’ process if you ask me.
Whatcha plotting with your family?!?!?! You can’t write something like that and leave your peeps hangin’!